You sometimes have to just say yes. Yes to moving forward, yes to changing your life, yes to ripping everything up and starting all over again.
You reach a point where you’ve just heard too many NO’s, too many negatives, too many refusals. Heard them – but also said them yourself. You’ve told yourself so often ‘this is just the way it is, this is all I deserve, I can’t do it’. You believe it after a while. And the world closes in, gets that little bit smaller, every time that little voice inside whispers “I can’t”. You end up living a fraction of the life that’s out there, bound in by your limitations, believing you genuinely can’t do the things, make the choices you see other people making.
So you have to start saying yes. Yes to moving house, yes to changing relationships that aren’t working, yes to leaving the job you hate. And it isn’t easy. Because saying yes to new things means saying goodbye to stuff that was warm and comfortable, even though it was worn out and didn’t really work properly anymore. It breaks your heart to move on from some of those things, but moving on is all you can do. It’s a compulsion, driving you forward, telling you it’s time to change, even though you don’t really understand why.
Written for Stream of Consciousness Saturday hosted by Linda G. Hill. This week’s prompt was to start with a word beginning with Y, and if possible to end with the word ‘why’. If you’d like to take part the rules are as follows:
1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing, (typos can be fixed) and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.
2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.
3. There will be a prompt every week. I will post the prompt here on my blog on Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The’,” or simply a single word to get your started.
4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS:” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours. Your link will show up in my comments for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top. NOTE: Pingbacks only work from WordPress sites. If you’re self-hosted or are participating from another host, such as Blogger, please leave a link to your post in the comments below.
5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read everyone’s! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later, or go to the previous week, by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find right below the “Like” button on my post.
6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!
7. As a suggestion, tag your post “SoCS” and/or “#SoCS” for more exposure and more views.
8. Have fun!